FUCK IT, this is still what I'm going to blog about.
The train yesterday morning was 10 times more crowded than usual, I couldn't breath, there was a middle-aged korean woman's shoulders pressing into my lungs. And her butt was pressed into my right thigh. And she was very clearly pissed at me, clearly thought that I was the one making the subway packed and uncomfortable for her, must have assumed that I wanted my right thigh to be pressing into her butt. She kept wiggling her butt like a baby or a dog who wants more space on the bed, the way they shove their butts right into you.
The train yesterday morning was 10 times more crowded than usual, I couldn't breath, there was a middle-aged korean woman's shoulders pressing into my lungs. And her butt was pressed into my right thigh. And she was very clearly pissed at me, clearly thought that I was the one making the subway packed and uncomfortable for her, must have assumed that I wanted my right thigh to be pressing into her butt. She kept wiggling her butt like a baby or a dog who wants more space on the bed, the way they shove their butts right into you.
And what were you doing? Was it because I was a stupid girl or a stupid young girl or a stupid young foreign white girl who wasn't wearing stockings that day? And what were you doing in the security room with the videos? And what are you doing, can't you see that I'm preoccupied, that I don't care if you practice your English by watching Friends in your spare time? In my spare time I wear thin, school appropriate dresses and wait for you to grope me.
You were right, @bird_esque. I didn't go to school today, I couldn't get on the subway. I called Shin-Jung, I told her the truth.
You were right, @bird_esque. I didn't go to school today, I couldn't get on the subway. I called Shin-Jung, I told her the truth.
5 comments:
I think that dog is high or something
what dog would stay on its back for that long? mom
PAM, BE OKAY, OKAY? And if you have to not be okay, that's okay, as long as it's helping you to return to being okay later. Love and safety to you.
And, I have your purple dress, the disco goddess one. I am having a damned difficult time with these post offices, I have like 5,000 things to send.
Let it be a testament to how long it's been since I cleaned my room that I had no idea (NONE) that the purple disco goddess dress was missing. But I mean, don't worry about it or anything. If it's too much of a hassle, just know that I'm not as attached to that dress as I used to be. It has a few too many memories of A.Miller attached to it.
Did Jane tell you what was going on? Not that it's a problem in any way if she did, it's just that if she didn't I'm kind of impressed by your powers of deduction.
I'm okay now, maybe a slightly angrier person than before. I partly like that, and want to develop anger until I am unbearable. And I partly want anger to GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK.
I just tried to leave a comment and it totes didn't work, apparently. Here's what I said last time, I'll feel like a jerk if it shows up twice in slightly different form.
Jane didn't tell me anything. I only have a vague idea of what happened/is happening (?) but I do not like it at all. At least I am glad to hear that you are okay now. I love you and I touch your head. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 excessive <3
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