I have no energy lately. Is it the cold weather? Is it stress over teaching? My co-teachers tell me they're always tired these days too; maybe it's a combination of my body fighting against the flu season, and the fact that I'm in the middle of a long stretch of teaching with no breaks (somehow, a weekend never seems like a long enough period of time to refresh myself, to get my energy back). Part of me really wishes the swine flu would get serious enough at my school for it to close. Just so I could have a break. But it's looking like the worst is over; the number of absences dwindles each day.
I want to walk into each class with lots of energy; I know that the class will be more interesting to the students if I am excited about the topic. Sometimes, that excitement comes naturally; other times, I can summon it up. But these days (by which I mean, the past week-and-a-half or so), I can't find it. I wonder if it shows through to the students. I wonder if it means I was silly to ever think I was capable of teaching.
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When it comes to being capable of teaching I think it's important that you want to have the excitement to make things interesting for your students, because it means even when you aren't well-rested and peppy you'll still try hard to make class a good experience for them. I hope your energy returns soon.
I think it means that learning how to teach is a long process, with ups and downs. As one of my TEFL classmates said last week, it's a long process learning how to teach. People go to school for years to learn how to do this, and here you are diving into it every single day. That's really hard to do & brave. I'm so proud of you really. And Jane. You guys are fucking powerhouses.
I totes agree with Audra. Both you and Jane have balls the size of Texas.
I got annoyed just having to teach one lesson to three different classes, much less having to come in and teach everyday. And I think it is probably draining that your students aren't really that excited about learning English to begin with. Honestly, the little bit of teaching I have done, it really makes you feel like shit when you realize something you are really passionate about isn't as exciting for the people you are teaching. Personally it made me angry, like "WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU NOT GETTING OFF ON LEARNING ABOUT GLOBAL WARMING? GET A CLUE YOU LITTLE BRATS!" So kudos for not snapping on the little bitches like I would have by now. LOL. Heartz.
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